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Sunday, January 20, 2008

To be a good surgeon, you must first be a good first assistant ...

“You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him discover it in himself.”
~Galileo Galilei

One of the first questions resident applicants ask is, "when will I get to operate?" For the most part, operating is the reason most people go into a surgical specialty. We understand that clinic is a necessary evil. Clinic is where the surgical decision making begins and the final outcomes are determined. It is a key element in surgical education, and for the most part, is hated by most residents.

So, when should a resident be the primary surgeon operating surgeon? Well, I truly believe that you must first be a good first assistant. Many may disagree with this statement. I hated when an attending would make the same statement to me. My response, in my head of course, would be, "I have prepared for it and I am ready." I will concede that holding a retractor in a 10 hour case is not a great learning experience; but like the unpopular clinic, first assisting is a vital tool in developing surgical skills.

Surgery is about pattern recognition. For a more experienced surgeon, watching another surgeon operate is like watching film to prepare for a game. S/he is looking for better or different ways of attacking a problem. When we see a certain pattern or obstacle, how should we approach it? The basic pattern is understood. Like Tom Brady reading a defense and changing the play to exploit a weakness, an experienced surgeon may change his/her techniques based on a recognized pattern. A young surgeon uses all his/her senses to orient themselves to a procedure. The anatomy never looks like the Netter drawings. Like a child experiencing the world, they need to feel, see, and taste everything. It is more information into the computer to be stored for future pattern recognition. In assisting, unknowingly the surgeon is increasing the data bank of patterns. Pattern recognition is what helps surgeons move effortlessly thorough procedures. "I have seen that before .... this is what worked before." It allows for almost reflexive responses to challenges and obstacles during a procedure.

Learning through observation, passive learning, is different than the learning through direct participation, active learning. As primary surgeon, the surgeon can "feel" the education occurring. The active learning is through brute force and improvements are almost palpable. For the experienced surgeon, observation, passive learning, is a vital tool in improving surgical skill and improving their currently used techniques. For the less experienced surgeon, the subtleties of the surgeon's techniques may be lost because so much energy is used to understand the basics of the procedure. Because the learning is more passive, it does not feel like learning has occurred. Fortunately, it increases the surgeon's data bank of patterns.

What is it about assisting that improves surgical skill? Being a good first assistant requires you to understand the case. It would be like the caddy's relationship to the golfer; the assistants role is to anticipate. It starts with room set up and patient positioning. You must be able to think steps ahead and obtain whatever is needed help the procedure run smooth with less delays. The assistant must know the instruments and have an understanding of how they are used. Although these little things seem unnecessary, they are all extremely important.

As a novice surgeon, the OR can be very overwhelming. Sometimes just remembering the approach is stressful enough. As an assistant, you don't have to think about the how and why during the procedure. Your role is to pay attention, to anticipate the next move, and to help his/her exposure and/or vision. To be a good first assist, you actually must understand the procedure and think steps ahead. For the novice surgeon, the assistant role allows them to absorb the information. Although you are thinking ahead in the case, you are not required to make critical decisions and therefore, it is less stressful.

With each case and surgeon, you will experience different ways of accomplishing the same goals. Some will use different instruments to perform similar tasks. You will begin to develop your own style or flare. You find what works for you. There will be instruments that you like and dislike. I am partial to the cobb. My residents have heard me say more than once that I could win Survivor with 2 good sharp cobbs. With each case, the young surgeon's repertoire of surgical approaches, positions, instruments, and retractors, increases. Their understanding of OR management from set up to time management improves.

The goal of residency is to create a complete surgeon. Technical skill is only one component. Like the decision making skills gained from clinic, assisting helps in rounding off the surgeon. Although many other specialties view orthopaedic surgeons as technicians, there is a lot more thought that goes into the treatment of musculoskeletal disorders. The easiest part of what we do is the technical part. The decisions are the hard part. So, when should a resident become primary surgeon? Well, my view is not until they are chiefs and almost ready to graduate. In my mind, the primary surgeon is not the one who is making the incisions; the primary surgeon is making the decisions. The primary surgeon has to decide who is an appropriate surgical candidate, what surgery is appropriate, and what techniques are to be used. The primary surgeon must think about OR setup (lights, bed position, c-arm position), patient positioning (supine, lateral), surgical approach, instrumentation type, surgical closure, and postoperative management. The primary surgeon must be complete.

As the attending surgeon, it is difficult to perform both roles, surgeon and first assistant. There are many days when I wish I had a first assistant instead of a resident. Someone who would concentrate on assisting and not trying to move into the role as primary surgeon. The assistant's role is to keep the surgery moving forward. As a resident, I remember finishing a case and believing I did a great job on it. In hindsight, I realized that is was my fist assistant (the attending) who made the case go so smoothly. The attending surgeon moved me through the case like a puppet. So what do I do today when I need an expert assistant, I ask one of my partners to assist.

“There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.”
~Tom Krause

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Feeling Human again ...

"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

As physicians, we treat any number of illnesses, speak to patients about treatment options, and comfort families when bad news is given. Although we are sometimes held to a higher standard, held in high regard, or think very highly of ourselves, we are still only human. Every once and a while one of are own, family, friend or colleges, is struck ill or dies and it reminds us how human we are. We are not gods or immortals, but human.

One of our colleagues was affected this past Christmas eve. I will say a prayer for him and wish his family well. I will hug my children a little longer tonight.


"Carpe diem! Rejoice while you are alive; enjoy the day; live life to the fullest; make the most of what you have. It is later than you think.”

~Horace

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Patience young padawan ....

“All human wisdom is summed up in two words - wait and hope”
~Alexandre Dumas Père

Perspective is everything. Depending on your stage in residency, you will be concerned about different things when you perform a surgery. Depending on your practice, you may have cases that are routine to you, and then there will be cases that you may consider your "big cases." You may develop a system of how you approach these larger cases. I have my own way of approaching big (i.e. more challenging or risky) surgeries. I tend to approach them like when I was involved in sports and right before big game. I will give you a picture into my mind on the day of a routine big case, a scoliosis case.

BEEP BEEP BEEP ....

5am: Damn alarm. I don't want to get up. No you have to, time to run. Where are my fff --, oh there are my shoes. Ok, oatmeal, coffee and then time to run.

7am: (ring ring) Clerk say, "Hello." I say like I am just happy to be here, "Hey it's Dr. P, I am here in the hospital."

715am: Discussion with family about surgery and answering any additional questions. The same questions I answered in our preop conference.

730am: Scrubs are on. It is now game time. Head phone in my left ear. Tool is playing.

"10,000 Days (Wings Pt. 2)" TOOL

We listen to the tales and romanticize,
how we follow the path of the hero.

Boast about the day when the rivers overrun,
How we'll rise to the height of our halo.

Listen to the tales as we all rationalize,
our way into the arms of the savior.
Fading all the trials and the tribulations.

None of us have actually been there,
Not like you...

The ignorant fibbers in the congregation.
Gather around spewing sympathy,
Spare me...

None of them can even hold a candle up to you.
Blinded by choices,
hypocrites won't see.

But enough about the collective Judas.
Who could deny you were the one who illuminated?
Your little piece of the divine.

This little light of mine it gives your past unto me,
I'm gonna let it shine to guide you safely on your way.

Your way home...

I walk in to the room, silent. The x-rays are on the board. Ok, double major curve, 80 over 80. Screws at ... I begin writing on the white board, acknowledging only my scrub person. No one speaks to me. I don't like the small talk. I am focusing on the task at hand. Screws at T3-9 ... Resident comes over, he says nothing. I finish my notations on the board and my scrub starts making note of the number of screws and sizes. Disturbed is playing. This is my favorite part. (You know the part they won't play on the radio)
"Down with the sickness" Disturbed

No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me
Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy?
Don't do it, you're hurting me
Why did you have to be such a b!t@h
Why don't you,
Why don't you just f#%k off and die
Why can't you just f#%k off and die
Why can't you just leave here and die
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
F#%kYOU
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive f#%king whore
How would you like to see how it feels mommy
Here it comes, get ready to die ....

(Guitar riff is playing) I look over at the patient. F#%kin' ansethesia. Why does it have to be like groundhogs day? Why do I always have the CA-1? Why does it take them 1 hour to get lines in a normal child? FFFF#####%%%%%%KKKK. Be patient, breathe.

Spine instrumentation rep, Joe, says, “So, you been busy?" Why does he feel the need to speak to me at this moment? He knows I don't like small talk now. "Well, you know its summer. Busy season for us," I say and smile.

My resident today is Paul, ortho year 2. He has never done spine before let alone a deformity case. UUURRRGHHH, this is going to be painful. My only hope is he knows how to use a cobb. "So, Paul, while anesthesia is getting the lines in, give me the Lenke Classification of this curve." I wish the Guano Apes didn't break up. That lead singer, man, she totally rocks out.

"DICK" Guano Apes

Don’t say a word
life is like a sin-phony
brave as you dare
there’s nothing but your gain
so take off your shoes
and coming down from ecstasy
hide and turn loose
that’s why i force you to

walk like a stag
talk like a stag
come watch yourself
walk like a stag
who could wear my pants

dick
no dick
you got no
dick
yeah yeah how come ...

To Paul, "Ok, let's start getting the table ready. In the prone position, you need to pad here ... here ... and here." Good they are finally putting in the foley. I close my eyes. Ok, posterior approach. Knife, retractors, bovie. Watch for the bleeders, they are always there. X-ray. Burr, gear shift pedicle probe, tip out, probe pedicle, tip in, enter the body, probe pedicle, measure tap, screw. This is standard. Remove facets. Release concave side well. Rods cut. Place. Done. Simple. You have done this many times before.

"Are we ready to flip," I say. "Ok anesthesia count." She says, "1 .. 2.. 3." The patient is flipped. Everyone starts to scurry around the room. Breathe, patience, slow your hands.

"Bill, do you have good wave forms?" I say to my neuromonitoing guy.
"Sure do, Dr. P."

"Ok, you all ready? Go head and prep." Last song, focus.

"Judith" A Perfect Circle

You're such an inspiration for the ways
That I'll never ever choose to be
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How the savior has abandoned you
F#%k your God
Your Lord and your Christ
He did this
Took all you had and
Left you this way
Still you pray, you never stray
Never taste of the fruit
You never thought to question why

It's not like you killed someone
It's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side
Praise the one who left you
Broken down and paralyzed
He did it all for you
He did it all for you ....

I walk into the bathroom to pee, the last one for a little bit. Time to wash my hands. I take my head phones off. While washing, I close my eyes. Lord please guide my hands today so that I may do good and cause no harm. Please watch over us so that we may do what is right for this child. AMEN.

We finally begin the case. "Knife to the young doctor. Ok Paul, go from here to here." Ok, with the next pass, you can actually go through the skin. "Good job, wheaty to me. Paul take your bovie and cut between my snap. So, where are the normal bleeders we will encounter while approaching the spine." I know he will have no idea. They never do.

OK, it is 930, we are exposed. "Let’s pick a level we know we are going to fuse. Alright, burr." Patience, same steps every time. "Tap, screw..... OK, C-arm. let's verify these levels." .... "Good we have enough exposure."

I put in all of my screws. Now it's Paul's turn. Be patient. "Ok, Paul have you looked at the pedicle screw chart."

Paul says, "yeah."

"Ok, well then let's go. Burr to the young doctor." He picks up the burr with one hand and starts to go towards the spine. "Stop! Now, Paul, everything over the spine is a two handed instrument. Brace yourself, and don't plunge, because that would make me sad." I show him how to place 5 screws, but I put the rest in because of time.

"X-ray!" Well that wasn't so bad, that stressor is over. "Bill, how are those signals." Bill shouts, "great." Good, xrays are good. Ok, what time is it? 1030am.

"Paul, can you cut rods this length?"

"Sure," he says.

"Ok, rods. Cap." FFFF#####%%%%%%KKKK, why do they always have to go on break when we are at this part, g*d d@*n, mother f#%ker, sh1t, b@$t@rd, Son of a b1^ch. "The cap is in that tray, use the blue handled ... Joe help her." I close my eyes. Breathe, breathe. Why me, what have I done? I think they must hate me.

"Xray ... That looks pretty good. Let's see how the xray looks."
"That looks FFT baby." FAN-F#%k!n-TASTIC. "Final tighten and let's close. Put on the Idol man.”

Shouting out, “Bill are you happy?"

“Yes Dr. P, I am happy.”

“Well, alright. Let’s rock out.”


God, I thank you god guiding my hands. Amen

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time.”
~Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy